Lately the fire around me is burning brighter than the fire inside of me.
put a vhs filter on this and play xxxtentacion and suddenly im depressed
“I want to say that I’m sorry. I don’t know exactly for what, but I am. Genuinely. Because people don’t just leave without a reason”
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The more time passes, the less I feel like living. One day, soon I think, I am going to kill myself and I’m not sure if I care enough to try and change my fate.
“Let me tell you what I do know: I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good. The truth is complicated. It’s two-toned, multi-vocal, bittersweet. I used to think that if I dug deep enough to discover something sad and ugly, I’d know it was something true. Now I’m trying to dig deeper. I didn’t want to write these pages until there were no hard feelings, no sharp ones. I do not have that luxury. I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again. I want more landmarks, less landmines. I want to be grateful but I’m having a hard time with it.”
— Richard Siken (via quotemadness)